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Broken Heart

"It's easier to run, Replacing this pain with something numb..."

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16 June
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Hello it appears that you have stummbled into the life of a depressed 23 year old woman. Welcome and hopefully you'll enjoy your stay. I guess I should start off by telling you a little about myself for starters, I'm a Christian eventhough I do tend to get angry at God for things, but I guess that's normal for every Christian once in a while. I'm also very open. I accept everyone no matter what race, lifestyle, religion, sexuality, etc...I look at the heart. If you're a goodhearted person who doesn't stab people in the back or bash others to build yourself up welcome to my journal otherwise keep going because you're not welcome.

As most of you know I am 23 and from Colorado. I'm a daughter, a sister, an aunt to an adorable neice who I love with all of my being, spoil rotton and talk about frequently in my journal. I'm also a grand-daughter, a neice, and a friend. I'm nothing special, but the usual average jane. I'm not into the whole make-up and glitter like most girls are. I do better without it. I guess in a sense you can call me a tom boy, but I don't judge others who do just as long as you don't try caking that crap on my face lol.

Personality wise, I'm shy until you get to know me or if I get a bad vibe about you. I have a pretty good sense of intuition since birth does that make me one of those psychics who can spontaniously look into a crystal ball upon command? No this is a gift that I was born with. I don't want people asking me for readings like I'm a sideshow freak. I use it to help people and when and if I get a sense about you or something I feel you should know I'll tell you. I see and I say I don't say upon command. Wow I got sidetracked ok moving on. Once I get to know a person I can be very energetic and a daredevil, but at the same time I have common sense and know when enough is enough. I'm pretty youthful and half the time I don't even act my age, but I do it when needed. I try to be a loyal friend and take others under my wing especially when they're younger which generally eventually gets me walked on like a mat which I will no longer tolerate

In my life I've had struggles. For starters, I have struggled with depression since 13 and have attempted suicide in the past, but luckily am unsuccessful because of the awesome circle of friends I have and the beautfiul neice that God has blessed me with. I have never seen a shrink about it, but hopefully will someday. When it comes to problems I'm not that open especially to strangers so who knows. Being the depressed person that I am, there will be dark, cold, or distant enteries in this journal. If you don't like it then don't read and don't judge. Not all of us get out of bed easily every morning eager to thank God for being alive. I've also had many loses in my lifetime that I still haven't healed from. Some being suicides which I do tend to mention them through out the journal as well.

I have a kick ass boyfriend named Jared. We've only been dateing a day so it's hard to get used to, but I'm very greatful to have a good guy like him. It's not everyday I have a strike of good luck so I'm definatly rejoicing and thanking my lucky stars for him. We're doing long distance so it's gonna be a rocky road, but I have confidence that we'll make it. If not we're not meant to be, but I'm really praying we are. Yes I still hate V-Day lol!


1. I will no longer tolerate judgments about my life or how I've screwed up in life
2. If you don't like cussing then I don't suggest you staying
3. Either accept my lifestyle or go away
4. Accept that I sin like everyone else
5. Don't accuse me of being prideful or wanting sympothy when I vent it is a journal afterall
6. Don't complain about content after all you are choosing to read
7. If you take me off I take you off...I think it's only fair
8. I have depression so there will be some rants that might stirr emotions. I can't hold them in anymore and I don't see why I have to. I am considering making them private, but I still don't think it's fair that I have to.
9. My journal is now friends only. If you ask to be added, I won't add you until you read and understand the rules. I don't mean skim them and call it good. Actually take two seconds and read the content and then tell me that you read them and I will consider adding you.
10. If you decide to be a troll and are disrespectful towards me or people on my friend's page such as judging, bashing, etc...I'll give you a warning and then the next time you do it, you're gone.
11. I support the gay/lesbian/bi community and have many awesome friends that fit in those categories. If I read any hurtful remarks that are offensive to me or these people, you're off it's that simple. I will no tolerate that crap in my journal...

That is all for now until I add more!

I'll do the info later because I'm lazy right now, but please read the rules. Thanks!

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable

At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty

You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it

Your caffeine addiction level: high

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Self-Injury: You are NOT the only one.

"We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, students, and business owners. We have depression, DID, PTSD, eating disorders, borderline personalities, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some were not. We are straight, bi, and gay. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every single race or religion that you can possibly think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. We are not freaks, and we are not alone."

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